Alright, so here’s a little of what’s been going on in my life at the moment. At about 8 weeks into my maternity leave, I sat down and worked on our family budget. This is something that I had been avoiding, knowing that I would probably see that I needed to go back to work. If you know me, you know that I want to stay home with my kids so bad! I feel like I was born to be a stay at home mom. You’d think I would have thought of that when we bought our over priced car or when I racked up credit cards, because I felt fat and thought new clothes would help. We, since then, have learned our lesson, but are left with the aftermath of our irresponsibility. I had been praying about our financial situation and asking God to find a way for me to stay home, of course, if that’s what he wanted.
Now, back to the present. So, I talked with Marty about our budget, and I reluctantly decided that I would step back into my office on June 22nd. I talked myself into the whole situation, and realized that I needed to rely on God to help me through this time. After Jaxon was born, I don’t think I relied on God like I should have. In turn, I probably made things harder on myself, whereas daily scripture could have helped me get through my day without tears. This time around, I thought that if I was getting sad throughout the day, I would just talk to God while sitting at my desk. Then, just a couple days later, I spoke with co-workers that told me that I might actually get laid off due to my job being eliminated. This elimination was a known fact to me, because the accounting department was getting transferred up to corporate at some point, I just wasn’t sure when. I started doing the math and realized that I would make out better with unemployment, because of not having to pay for childcare. The past week, I have been on pins and needles wondering if I had to go back to work or not. Finally, yesterday, I got a call telling me that my position was in fact, eliminated. I am so happy, and have no doubt that God was in this all. Now, there was still our whole insurance situation. I carry the insurance for our family. I went in to talk to HR and because of the stimulus involving insurance, we only have to pay 35% of Cobra, which makes it extremely reasonable. Tears come to my eyes when I think of all that has worked out in our favor, especially because I know that my heavenly Father did this, because he cares for my family and I.
My plans for the near future are to first, enjoy my beautiful boys. Then, I am going to take the interior design course that I have been dying to jump into.
I know that through all of this, God was just trying to open my eyes up to his amazing power. I don’t know why I try to do everything on my own, but now have realized when I give it to God, and pray for whatever is concerning me, he can perform miracles.
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